I live in a weird space for a black femme. I went all in to tech and business during my 20’s and early 30’s. I am very skilled at: understanding how to emulate a white nan and please him. I have learned what he likes and doesn’t. I observe his fantasies and pretend I too share those fantasies. I observe his jokes and I pretend to like those jokes too. I wear a mask every day that looks so much like him I struggle to find my own skin behind that mask.